I am glad the radio does not work in my car. When it does I believe literally ever other song is about you and I. I wonder if I’ll help stop thinking of you multiple times a day. It’s been happening for so many years now that I think I will always think of you.
I heard about your job…or lack of. I am sorry for that.
I wonder what you will do.
I wonder if you still have your stash buried in the woods that you told me about awhile ago now. Your safe-keeping for future expenses…like a house.
Maybe it makes no difference to you but I feel disappointed I’m not there for you.
I miss my best friend, my lover, my confidant. But I just keeping pushing down the road. I just push everyday to somehow find a place where I can rest my thoughts of you and make peace with what may happen. I’m pushing through every facet of my life right now, especially I’m pushing back at the notion I will never be married or have children.
Please do not take it personal, its not that I don’t like you or hate you. I just don’t want to be in your way either if you are content where you are.
I wonder if you still have that bottle of wine.
I feel as if I’ve been through a war somedays and you are my phantom limb. You’ll always be there as if I never lost you. But when I look in the mirror I see a side of me missing, just a numbness and pain where you use to be.
Don’t get me wrong, I am not complaining. I have a good life. But it doesn’t mean I’m unscathed.